I have been struggling with vaginismus now for over two years.
Originally, I did not know that this was what it was. I did not have a name for it and I kind of just felt helpless. This year I decided to get to the bottom of it. I was taken for test after test, and sent on a whirlwind of medical diagnoses. Finally, I was sent to an OBGYN who diagnosed me properly with vaginismus. Before booking my consultation I felt lost, like I had reached a dead end. I had almost accepted that painful sex was all that there was for me and I was just going to have to learn how to live with it.
I did not experience any resistance in booking my consultation with Katrin. I felt so lost that I would have grabbed on to anyone who I thought would be able to help me. I just needed someone to give me a game plan, I needed to hear that there was a light at the end of the tunnel, and I needed the resources to get through this. No one around me seemed to know what could help and this is what made me feel so discouraged and frustrated.
During our chat I felt hopeful. I felt like there was finally someone there that understood what I was going through. I have been open with my friends and family through this journey but still have not been able to find comfort in them. They do not understand, they do not know how to help, or what to say.
Katrin gave me a sense of hope. I feel like this is all I needed in order to have the motivation to work through the steps necessary and leave vaginismus in my past. As soon as I heard the words you will get through this, I felt calm. I think that I realized that I was placing the blame on myself for what I was experiencing.
When Katrin told me that I was not broken it really hit me hard.
I realized in that moment that I was assigning that label to myself. Broken. I am not broken and I now have the tools to work through vaginismus.
I am proud of myself for not giving up. I am even proud of myself for allowing myself to feel frustrated. All of these emotions and experiences have led me to where I am now and I do not regret any of them.
I wish that others who are experiencing vaginismus would be able to know that they are also not broken. I want them to know that there is so much more happening than what appears on the surface and that you can get through it. For me, just knowing that I would move past this was enough to bring me comfort.
I would recommend that others reach out to Katrin because through her experiences, she has been able to provide others with the tools needed to find peace. Just after our consultation, I decided to invest in The Pain Free and Intimate Recipe and I no longer feel stress when I think about my vaginismus.
I now see it as a journey. One that I will overcome. One that is not pleasant. But also, one that will make me stronger and more in tune with myself than I ever thought possible.