For weeks I have never had the courage to really face the fight against vaginismus. I had bought dilators a few weeks ago but didn't plan on using time any time soon.
But then I took a social media break and focused on myself for some time. I have followed Katrin's Instagram account (@pain.free.and.intimate) for a while and the content she provided inspired and motivated me to actually start and face the struggle with vaginismus to get better.
And then I just tried dilating for the first time! I didn't think much, I simply tried it without any expectations because of what I learned from Katrin's content. I still thought it will be so tough and painful because that was all I knew from past experiences with intercourse or medical exams.
Then I started with the first size dilator and I didn't feel any pain, because I prepared by breathing and calming me down. It was not painful or uncomfortable at all. I was so happy. On the next day I continued with the second size and it was the same! In the following days I was able to make it up to size 3. Then I realized that size 3 is all I can do for now but that was okay!
I was so relieved that I managed to do the first 3 sizes and I would never know if I never tried!
Thankfully Katrin made me motivated and brave enough to go for it and it was a great decision. After all you never know how much affected you are if you never try for yourself! Sometimes all you need is to simply dare! I'm glad I did.
-Kristina (23, Hamburg, Germany)