If you're anything like I was...
You have suppressed your human instincts to experience pleasure.
Of course you did!
The attempt of feeling pleasure in the past has often resulted in pain and disappointment...
It's so natural that you aren't first in line for exploring this kind of deep intimacy with yourself.
Your sexual desires may have faded.
You may struggle with shame in your sexuality.
You may have also hidden away much of the sensual and feminine part of your being.
She's still in there...
But she's laying dormant.
You've protected her under layers of other wonderful parts of you. The ones that feel safer out in the world.
Your high performer self - the one that excels in her job, or as a loving daughter, or as a mother.
Your 'alpha woman' has taken centre stage.
She has been your safety blanket.
I know, she was mine too...