We did some subconscious programming to work through what had happened to me since I was a child. I realized that the unhealthy relationship I had with sex and the fear of getting pregnant was the psychological trigger to my vaginismus and without healing this part you cannot really unlock the rest of your body to accept PIV sex. This was really the key for me. 

I didn’t have to explain much to Katrin - she just understood, and she was so optimistic about my journey. She made me feel seen and heard, something I never knew was possible in my vaginismus journey. After chatting with Katrin, from that moment on I knew I had to enrol in the Sexually Liberated Journey. It was the first step of me doing something for myself - which was ultimately the key to me overcoming vaginismus. 

I promise it will be so helpful and SO worth it. Her wisdom and kind natured approach is exactly what I needed to continue moving forward with my journey. She always gives you the time to process and breathe through things and never rushes your progress. 

I’m so proud of myself for taking the leap of faith and investing in this work. It has truly changed my life - I feel more comfortable in my body than I have for most of my adult life. At the beginning of our journey together, Katrin asked me to envision the life I wanted to create for myself and it felt so far out of reach. In just four months, I can confidently say that the life I envision for myself - the life that is full of pleasure, love, intimacy, abundance, creativity, passion, and adventure - is happening all around me. It is here. I am forever grateful.

You know, someone once said that I was a cold fish in bed and of course I was - the anxiety and pain had me feeling paralyzed and stuck!

Even though I’m not having partnered penetrative sex yet (and don’t have a partner to try it with), I’ve now shifted the anxiety I was feeling about my sexuality into more of a sense of adventure. Still, during this journey I experienced non-penetrative sex with a partner and felt like without the expectation of going all the way, I could allow myself to surrender to the masculine and have fun with it! 

The goal now? Many will cringe, (but I’m okay with not being 'cool') - to unconditionally love myself. To love how I feel at any moment in time, to forgive myself, to honour myself, to love my body and how it looks at different points in my life, and finally to accept that this is a journey I was meant to be on. Is it an easy card to be dealt? No. Have I gained so much more than I could have ever have imagined as a result of being on this journey and meeting Katrin. Hell, yes.

I was surprised to learn how many life experiences had contributed to my fear of painful sex! I started to emotionally heal from past events, which then allowed me to change my perspective of internal penetration from very scary to a lot more possible. This led to many wins throughout my dilating journey (not without its hiccups of course). 

Overall, my journey with Katrin helped me so much emotionally and physically. I have for the first time ever experienced some pain-free insertion. I have also seen a positive change in my relationships and the way I present myself to the world. I now have the confidence that vaginismus is not something that will haunt me forever, but rather it is just a stage in my life that I will overcome.